Hi, kamu!
It's ya girl, tehCpeng.
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What to write?
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How to start?
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Hm...
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After so many times hitting that delete button, I decided.. to write whatever I feel like writing. After all, I'm not sure if people have that much attention span nowadays to read something extravagant (by people, I mean: me). Turning 30 next year and yea.. I don't fancy reading as much as I did years ago T_T
But I figured.. since I decided to build a brand that is able to happen because of your unending and immense support, I figured this is one of the ways that we can bond and get closer in this journey.
To be honest, I did not feel like building a brand that focuses on products solely, but as much as I can, I'm trying to engage with all of you.
(really meh, tehc? you never read my DMs also) -- hehe, sorry. I received so much DMs within a day, I feel overwhelmed to reply to everyone so I never really checked the message request T_T you know your girl has social anxiety and I'm afraid I will come across unpleasant DMs (although given my followings, I acknowledge that not everyone will like us) so yeah. As much as I can, I'm taking good care of my mental health nowadays. (:
We can bond here tho! I hope I gather unproblematic and supportive souls here hehe. I know y'all are sweet souls because if not, you wouldn't even be here to read this. And still reading until now haha.
Back to the title...
"Tajuk baru."
It's literally, a new chapter for me. This whole world of e-commerce is foreign to me. I still have a lot to learn and a lot to discover. To be honest, it scared me so much in the beginning but I know that the worse that can happen is either I make it or I don't.
In my 29 years of living, one thing that I learn is that life will keep on moving. Even if you stop and take a break, life will keep moving. Whatever you are doing right now, life is moving. It does not stop for you or anyone. So the only thing we can do is to keep moving forward. No turning back, no reminiscing the past.
I used to be a nurse for 10 years (that's a story for another time) and you can imagine how clueless I was when I first started. My whole life has been studying anatomy, medications and deciding which coffee I was gonna drink so I could be alert and not accidentally kill any patient today. But now I gotta pick a theme colour for a brand logo, figuring payment gateways, choosing needles that are good for embroidery or threads that better suited the machine type, and so much more.
Being a nurse, we had guidances and schedules - we know what to do at this time, that time. But being your own creative? Totally on your own, girl. Your brain produces what only your brain can produce. Nobody can help you with that. So your brain thinks 24/7 365, literally not stopping.
There came a time when I did not have my creative juice or creator block as some would call it. Literally I just laid down in my bed and cried, thinking I have no value anymore now that I'm no longer a nurse. What am I really? I quit nursing to pursue my dream, but what am I doing now? Nothing.
Yeah, we all have burdens that we carry and only we know how heavy it is.
But anyways! I'm here to remind you that life is no black and white. We are born into this world without any rules and guidances. Even if our parents raised us a certain way, they too were not born and right away know the way to raise children.
Every bit and pieces of us are made up of all the moments we have ever experienced and people that we have ever met and known. So if you're navigating through big and scary waves today, just remember to enjoy surfing through it - because it will make you appreciate the beautiful walk along the beach even more.
Okay so this has been fun. I can't wait to write again.
Oh how I miss my blogging era. I used to blog so much back when I was a teenager and when I was 20-25 years old. Then, the world of social medias took over and I abandoned my old blogs haha. If you've followed me since way back, you'd know the yapper I was in Tracypedia's >.<
See you all in my next blog post. Hopefully with better contents next time.
Sayang kamu!
-tehCpeng
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